Realisations

It is always interesting when you have one of those crazy light bulb moments. More often than not no matter what the issue, you can't believe you never saw it before - whatever the specific 'it' on this occasion may be! I had my individual session with JdR today and had some break through moments. Sitting and talking about mum for basically the whole hour and realising what a negative person she has been for some time now was extremely eye opening. basically looking right back into my early teenage years I can now see quite clearly just how pessimistic, contrary and competitive she could be. JdR said I should feel proud of myself, that I've come out of my upbringing a positive and optimistic person, always (within reason!) looking for the good in others and trying wherever possible to help. I find moms constant downer on pretty much any news (that doesn't have a positive impact on her) extremely draining - not being able to share important or exciting events straight away for fear of how she will react, often knowing full well she just wont give me the reaction that I want to hear. To finally be able to look at my years at home ( as well as the ten years since then) and see just how much it has affected me is a huge relief. To be able to see it, accept it and move forward feels hugely practical and like a real step in the right direction. This is who she is (she's her mothers daughter and doesn't even see it herself) and she's not going to change any time soon. In time I just need to find a way to be ok with it, moving onwards and upwards. 

Deadmau5 and Wolfgang Gartner - "Animal Rights"

Deadmau5 and Wolfgang Gartner - Animal rights

Invasion of the Fruit Fly

Somehow, on my last grocery shop I managed to pick up the bunch of bananas with a SWARM (no exaggeration) of Fruit Flies living in the stalk. They have been on our kitchen counter about three days and yesterday I glanced at them and thought I saw ants crawling across them so gently touched the skin and jumped back in surprise as an angry army of Fruit Flies instantly burst in the air around the apartment. It took us a few seconds to work out exactly what they were and what had happened and within minutes the apartment felt infested. A few minutes research on the internet revealed they have a life span of a week and quickly lay eggs in household furniture/fabrics etc. As you can imagine, this did not go down well with the boy, and as lazy and scruffy as I am prepared to be at points these little flying buzzards were somewhat annoying. We then spent 3hrs+ sterilizing our apartment from top to bottom, sweating like crazy trying to get rid of them anyway we could. Ultimately we ended up setting some home made traps (vinegar and washing up liquid) and the little idiots go straight for them. 24hrs later we seem to be spotting fewer and fewer of them so hopefully we avoided an infestation...I'm keeping everything crossed that they work as the boy read yesterday (just before we went to bed at 5am) that they land on you whilst your sleeping (apparently they are pretty incompetent flyers!) so obviously he didn't get a wink of sleep even with a little blue pill inside him.

Weightloss

Got a call yesterday to say D&E are engaged - probably getting married in the Spring. Maybe March or April so we'll be heading home in 6 months - yay! :) Only slight problem is we're both still somewhat bigger than we'd like to be right now. I'm 18 stone on the mark and it sucks royally. I feel good when I get down to 16 stone but it would be *awesome* if I could get myself down the 14 stone or even less in time for the wedding... So... we're already trying to be a little more responsible with our eating (resisted a donut in TH's earlier and am now up on my own and walked straight past the fridge!!) but the biggest bitch is I know I'm going to have to get back into the exercise again. I've been looking into the Pro-fit Boot camp in Port Moody again. I did all the research for this well over a year ago (maybe it would have been a good idea to have got up off my ass and done it then huh??!) and it looks good. 3 mornings a week for 4 weeks @ 5:30am for $150 - seems pretty bargainous to me. I've really got just just got on and do it. if I stay focussed and work hard (3lbs a week) I will be well under 13 stone by the time we go home and J's even better with 2lbs a week to be around 14st. That would be sweeeeet. Watch this space, this has to happen this time. I can't wait to go home and see everyone, yippee!! :)

Labrinth - "Let the Sun Shine"

Let the Sun Shine

Loick Essien - "Love Drunk"

Love Drunk

The first time I heard this song was after several hours hard introspection on LSD and the whole track just wrapped itself around me like a fleecy blanket. I felt it take hold of some of my rawest moments from the past few hours, smooth them out then gently hand them back to me. It's not like the track is exactly acoustic or easy listening but the depth and the heart of the music really helped sail me through a stormy few hours :)

I know the boy will like this :)

Joy Williams - "Speaking A Dead Language"

Joy Williams - Speaking a dead language

Sara Bareilles - "King of anything"

Sara Bareilles - King of anything

So very much in love

I COULD NOT BE MORE IN LOVE WITH MY BOY

A Mummy's work...

It's always fun to still be up at 12:30pm fixing the boys Sippy Cup when I've to be up for work at 6am, even if is the little that's doing the fixing and it'll be the little driving me into work in the morning! Tee hee hee :) Am I a terrible Mummy??

Green Bubbles

I love that I can take the time, however busy my day, to see beauty (or at a minimum something a little unique and different) in the things going on around me. Today, as I was at a babies bedside (at work not home!) I noticed how funky and vibrant the equipment light looked when I looked at it through the bag of fluid hanging at the bedside. When I shook the bag to add bubbles it made a really cool liquid bubbles effect with an almost psychedelic green background. Very cool and it really encapsulated my head space for a few seconds. I pointed it out to a colleague who tried to make the right noises but clearly thought I was being a little odd - maybe I was but it made my day a little brighter! :op

Monday 13th September

A day of randomness really where nothing goes as planned but it still remains beautifully comfortable to be at J's side the whole day - even for a day of whatever whatever :) Went to Richmond after a failed attempt to visit the Walk in Clinic (my MSP has expired as my work permit has not arrived yet). My cough and cold have lasted well over three weeks now and my body is starting to get a little tired but hey, CIC have decided treatment is not quite due just yet. We then had a Thai lunch in Richmond which was unexpectedly yummy. It was one of those random restaurant risks that paid off - yay us! :)


We then went to have a look at some carpentry designed by someone who is a potential Carpenter for a cot for the nursery. He showed us a fire engine toy box which was awesomely cool. We'll definately be getting a paddle done in the very near future and will start saving for a cot very soon. Maybe I'll actually get a decent nights sleep once J has a cot to sleep in....hmm....maybe not for a while though, he'll be too excited! :) Anyways, after the brief woodwork interlude we went down to Steveston to The Diplomat Bakery which was scrummy. I went with my reliably standard Chai Tea Latte and not so standard Chocolate eclaire - it did not disappoint. Chomp num, num, num ;)


I then persuaded a reluctant boy to make a brief fruit and veg pit stop. Whilst we may be overspending on our groceries budget it's nice to be persistently putting good quality foods into our bodies even if we are still putting a little too much of it in! After some gaming (my reign at Squishy Chocolate and s**t head seems to have come to an abrupt end) and drinks in Richmond we came home to Pog who as always was super happy to see us. We decided against the cinema and instead had an evening in with J making slow cooked Chicken. 


Not our most action packed day but as always time with my boy is always well spent. I promise this will get more interesting even if I have just promised not to promise anymore! :op