Let the Sunshine :o)

So yesterday was another day of odd jobs. Picking up suits and sorting various other bits and pieces for the big day. The bride and groom are both doctors so time off together is beyond rare so I guess it's not really surprising that there is still quite a lot to be done. After a better nights sleep last night I am feeling less bitchy and all about me. Without doubt the situation waiting for us when we return to Vancouver is on my mind, but I shouldn't let that show right now. This week is not about me and my problems, but sadly with me, a lack of sleep almost always results in me being a little more sulky and unreasonable than normal. Not much I can do about that, it's all part of being me, but hey, at least the sulk cloud appears to be lifting so better late than never! :o)

Walking around Liverpool was very strange. Being back home really doesn't feel the way I was expecting. We've both agreed that we just don't miss it all that much. Obviously it's always nice to be back home but I genuinely expected to not want to return to Vancouver but as it turns out, I really do. People in this country are not as friendly as I remember. I have made a real effort recently to put out positive vibes wherever I go. In Vancouver it takes no time at all for the smiles and positivity to be returned, across here it's much harder work. People really make you proove yourself before they even force a smile and even that is often visibly an effort! When we landed I leant across and whispered into J's ear 'we're home' and he instantly shook his head and said 'no, we're visiting the UK' and after four days here I can confidently say I agree. For now, Vancouver feels like home, even without a place to live I'm eager to go back. At first this feeling almost upset me but now I'm just excited. I can enjoy my vacation with my sights set comfortably on the flight 'home' :o) *big smiles*

When we returned back to the cottage after our odd jobs yesterday, we fed the Horses some apples that we'd bought from a 'fruit n veg' stall in the city centre and we got to bottle feed a lamb which was really cool. The lamb was called Sebastian and is super cute. He'll be joining Belle and the others in the back field when he's a little older. Everyone was teasing me about having eaten lamb the night before but that doesn't bother me. I'm a farmers daughter. My grandad had my arm up a cows bum when I was 7 and I know how to kill and pluck a Chicken. I'm pretty confident I could do the country living thing pretty happily and this farmer has the balance just right. His farm is in beautiful Cheshire countryside located a 20 minute drive from Liverpool city centre. That seems like a perfect location to me. Not so keen on the prospect of being a farmer, but the farmers wife seems like a pretty sweet deal to me. Maybe in my next lifetime...

Yesterday evening we went to a nice restaurent in Heswall, a very cute but elegant bistro style place. Good food, good service, good company, can't complain at that now can I?! We then went back to the cottage and formed an assembly line accross the huge Oak kitchen table putting together the front page of the 'order of service' for Saturday. By midnight we were finished and got to spend a few minutes looking up at the most incredible night sky. It was so beautiful and made me feel so humble, the whole you-know-verse veiled over our heads. It was a magical moment and really made me realise that I needed to pull my head out of my arse and do all I can to make Saturday as special as possible. These people matter a great deal to me and I need to put my petty shit to one side and be there for them. Simples.

So, this morning J and I got groceries and made a full english breakfast for everyone. The cottage kitchen is huge and very well equipped so cooking in there was quite enjoyable. Everyone seemed to enjoy it and we even had the whole place cleaned up before we came out this morning. Go team! I'm currently sat in Tony&Guy under the hot lamps getting my hair coloured. I'm a bit nervous about the cost but it's a treat to help me look a little more presentable on Saturday. I guess this evening will be the final touches to a few wedding preparations and maybe game night if we have time. I can't wait to get down to the South of England on Sunday and catch up with J's best friends and their little 2 year old boy. Living so far away has made me truly appreciate the people across here that matter to me. Our time together this time may be shorter than I'd like, but I'll just have to make it count ;o)