Moving on...

So we're going to look at some new places today and tomorrow to try and find somewhere new to live. Our currant place is cool. It's a nice apartment, a good size for the two of us and Mylo with plenty of all the usual suburban 'essentials' to make a place nice to live, but several factors recently have resulted in this place not really working for us anymore. A number of the roads that circle our building have been widened resulting in our house sitting in the middle of the main thorough fair for all the emergency services and more importantly their sirens! As well as this the Strata in the building are arse holes. I would go into it more but they are not worth my time writing about them or your time reading about the same ;o) As well as both the above, our current place has become haunted by recent events for both of us and whilst we are trying to work through all that happened, our home, the place that should be our haven and retreat away from the rest of the world, became the location that will always be associated with the closest call to the end of our relationship to date. We are both highly sensitive and emotional people and surrounding ourselves with constant memory triggers is not proving helpful for either of us. Try letting go of something when you wake up everyday surrounded by triggers to the most emotionally crippling few days of your life...anyway....nuff said...we're moving!! :o)

I'm looking forward to trying something different for a bit. I'm not really a very suburban girl. I like one extreme or the other. I love city living. I think the plan is to do city center for a bit and then try the countryside for a while after that (if I can manage to break away from the hustle and bustle - I suspect I'm going to love it). So we're looking at downtown apartments. I love this city and I love this city even more in the summer. Who wouldn't right?! There are many downsides to Vancouver. I'll be the first to sit and list 20 things that drive me crazy about the place but for everything that drive me crazy there's two that I love, and what's even more infuriating is when my head space really wants to mess with me I suddenly find that something I previously hated I suddenly quite like. I'm realising more and more that inside my head, as in truly in the deep dark recesses of me - I'm one of the most confused, changeable, vague, indecisive, flighty, unsure and surely frustrating people to spend long periods of time with, and who do I end up spending *all* my time with...me! Seriously FML! Anyway let the house hunt begin.

We are lucky enough to be reasonably financially stable right now so finding somewhere that is a decent size for all three of us and that's in a decent location is actually quite achievable, but this is still Vancouver so prices are high and trying to find somewhere that doesn't have a strata and that will tolerate semi loud music may still be tricky. The definite upside is 420 friendly shouldn't be too hard either - yay!! I'm a little nervous about spending more on rent than we already do, but what I know for sure is that it's time for a change, for something a little different, no need to shake it up too much whilst things are still quite unstable but giving ourselves a whole new set of challenges, finding a new routine and somewhere new to explore should be a lot of fun. Fresh start and a clean slate, no more messing around, it's time for some proactive changes. It's our wedding anniversary tomorrow (gotta love life and the universe for timing right?!) and recent events have got to be seen as my tipping point. It's the point in my life that in the future represents the mark where a lot changed, that I learnt from what happened and the way I behaved and move on, and that's the struggle right now, too many reminders pulling my head back into the recent past. I'm a big girl now with a wonderful man(child!!) still at my side after everything that's happened. I guess this where the whole being a grown up thing comes in...sucks!! ;o)