I need a Sister.

I really need a Sister right now, I realise a best friend is supposed to at least come close to this kind of rapport but sadly in my case what I am asking of my best friend right now is clearly too much. Fair enough, I can see the situation is not an easy one for a more vanilla person to grasp but she seems incapable of giving me something even close to the support I need right now. Not even a text message since Friday. To say I'm disappointed doesn't really come close but if I'm honest I suspected this would happen. It's too much - I can see that.

I need someone who will, without question, jump on a flight to be with me and who will sit with me and let me cry. I feel so lonely - maybe I'm being unreasonable but it feels unfair that I should have to explain to people who claim to care about me what I need from them right now. I need them to care. I need them to not judge me. I need someone to hold me and allow me to cry without me having to worry about upsetting them. I need a sister, and what do I have instead? Two younger brothers. Two boys, both pretty emotionally unavailable and vanilla. Neither of whom would have even the slightest idea of what to say or do and both of whom would be ashamed and embarrassed by my behavior. No thanks bro, think I've got this one covered all on my own....but sadly, that's just not true....